So,I finally got a call back from the doctor today. I have a surgery date scheduled for February 22. I thought that when I got this call that I would be relieved because I would have a date and could set my mind on it. After I got off the phone I had a breakdown. I think all my fears came out...it's not like I am just getting a small procedure done they are cutting open my head. I know that God is in control and He will be taking care of me...but sometimes in my tiny human mind it is hard to just trust that! I know that Pat has alot of concerns too and we are learning how to talk about those and get those out. Sometimes they don't come out in the best ways but that is part of the learning that is coming with all of this. I do know that I am so glad that he is the man by my side through this journey. Sometimes I look back over our relationship and I know that we are not perfect and our relationship is not always perfect but he has stuck by me through some really tough stuff! It's in these times that he NEVER lets me down but just steps up and says "we will do what we need to do to get through this!" I love him for that! I know after this journey we will only be stronger as a couple and a family!
This song just popped in my head! How awesome are these words! He is the same yesterday, today, and forever! Father, help me trust You in all my circumstances when they make sense and when they don't, when it's easy and when it's hard. I know you give us only what we can handle. Today I'm jumping into your arms and trusting you to carry me through!
Father of lights
You delight in your children
Father of lights
You delight in your children
Every good and perfect gift
Comes from you
Every good and perfect gift
Comes from you
Every good and perfect gift
Comes from you
Father of lights
Father of lights
You never change
You have no turning
Father of lights
You never change
You have no turning
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